I'm reminded, in my infinite frustration, that in the Microbiology Lab, sometimes you do everything right, dot every i, and nothing works. And sometimes I take short cuts and ignore procedures left and right, and everything works perfect. After many evenings, weekends and holidays spent running into the lab to babysit my bacteria and viruses, that can't seem to get along, things still aren't working, and I'm exhausted. Emotionally spent, waiting for the breakthrough, one large step for me, and a redundant non-step for mankind. With all the teaching and courses, I haven't got enough time to devote to lab work in the last two years to be proficient in the basic microbiology methods I need now, as we rush off to Bangladesh. I know I have other skills to offer the team, validating our filters are our first step before applying them in the field, and if I can't do that, I'm not as good as I thought I was.
How many forms of failure must one take before one learns what one is really good at? Or is it in failure that we learn (as Thomas Edison believed) and so, as a self-professed life-long learner, I should get used to failure. Everyone rushes to reward the person that achieves, overcomes, succeed, but what about those that continue on inspite of failure? My hero, Paul Farmer, fights what he believes is a losing battle, advocating health of the poorest of the poor in Haiti, Peru and Russian Prisons. My goals are somewhat (and perhaps only temporally) aligned with his broader goals, but in Bangladesh. I'm not alone though, I have a team, at Columbia, UT (Center for Environmental Biotechnology), UNC and U Dhaka, but also, if you're reading this, you! I guess I need your understanding most of all, which is why I write this. If you're religious, then prayer is great as well!
Friday, December 07, 2007
Saturday, December 01, 2007
A New York Minute
Top of the Physics building. How many stars can you see in NYC???
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